THE GOOD. THE BAD.

I am the sunlight - it soars through my vessels, and blood, enriching me with vitamin

I am the wind - that kisses and caresses my skin nudging me and guiding me through life

I am the trees - their roots glazed and cursing through my eyes rooting my whole body

I am the grass and dirt - grounding me and giving me a place to stand or walk as I move

I am the sky - the stars, the light, the moon that keep me company

I am the flowers - growing endlessly and transforming

I am water - that cleanses me, helps me float, and takes me to a youthful place

I am a part of everything that surrounds me. Nature molds me into being the perfect human 

I am bitter.

Why?

Because I get asked to drive and all I hear are complains about my driving. Because I get asked for help but no one turns my way when I need it. Because god forbid I cancel or say no to plans but when I ask for their time without hesitation I get the no or I can’t. Because I can’t go anywhere without being used for my skills. Because I can’t seem to relax anywhere without having the obligation to do something for someone. Because the man I wish would’ve loved me enough to choose me, love me, pick me, and stay left without a care. Because I can’t seem to find a career who appreciates and rewards my work ethic and abilities. Because people trigger me. Because no one cares to get to know me and they base me on my few words and short-term looks. Because I just seem to want to be getting away from everyone but longing for a place of peace within them. Because picking myself isn’t as easy as people make it out to be. Because I long for a hopeless romantic friendship and love life. Because I seek my own space to create and build. Because I have all of this common sense, emotions, empathy, and it roars - but no one else…

Maybe I’m just afraid these things will consume me and make me bitter.

But I refuse to forget I am everything good and everything bad.